A girl's life...

Spiarh — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 05:51:40 +0000

I wish I could just reach out and touch you
But you’re too far away
I wish I could sing you a love song
But the song is not mine to sing
I wish I could tell you that I love you
But I care too much to say it.

Spiarh — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 05:44:56 +0000

Dammit – I miss you
Everything in me longs for you
Even though I know I shouldn’t
And even though I know my wanting it will not change anything
I love you unconditionally
And I choose to put you first

Going home…

Spiarh — Fri, 05 Sep 2008 10:45:06 +0000

I walked where once you where,

Your presence was all around me,

I wished to roll back the years so that you were here with me.

How would you see me now?

Would I be a person you’d be proud of?

What you be like now?

Forever you will be with me,

No matter where I should roam,

You’ll always be part of me.

Special…

Spiarh — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 09:38:10 +0000

You are so incredibly special,
I think you should be told.
You were specially created by the One who loved us all.

You may look at yourself and all you see is faults,
Nothing I say will change that,
But know that when I look at you all I see is your wonderful heart.

This poem I did write for you,
Just to say I love you,
You are awesome in every which way and time will never change that.

I wondered…

Spiarh — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 09:31:19 +0000

I once wondered,

If I looked hard enough at the phone,

Whether I could make you call,

Say you’d got it wrong,

And your heart it was mine.

Control…

Spiarh — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 09:13:42 +0000

I am at your mercy,

Waiting to be broken apart.

For the pain I hide is greater than the game we play.

You are my distraction,

An escape route from the pain.

I am your ego,

I make you feel special in those places you hide from the naked eye.

Do you see my truth?

Do you know what game you play?

My heart is in a tightly boxed crate,

Sitting alone in my inner room,

Will you be the glue or my destroyer?

Hope…

Spiarh — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 11:23:16 +0000

You are my truth.

The reason that I breathe,

My Almighty God,

My sanctuary where I hide.

—

You are my peace,

The hope in my heart,

The light behind my life.

You are everything.

Escape…

Spiarh — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 11:21:31 +0000

I tried to escape you today,

It did not work,

Everywhere I turned something brought me back to you.

I ran away,

Yet still reminder after reminder,

I gave in,

Yet you, I could not find.

When I came to you,

You had gone,

I was left to despair and pray,

That I was meant to be your friend,

Un-allowed to even make the slightest advance,

For fear that I too might be gone from you.

Sin…

Spiarh — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 11:17:58 +0000

I’m sitting here,

Surveying the territory gave me,

For the first time in a while I have peace in my heart,

Knowing that God has provided for me,

And despite men letting me down,

He is here.

Yet, I am still missing one thing dear to my heart,

I don’t want to appear ungrateful,

But I love you and God has placed you far away from me,

But closer than I thought.

It’s a revelation to me that I could love you so deeply,

You and I are so different,

The one type of man I swore I’d never go for,

Yet I didn’t guard my heart enough from you,

If this is sin,

I’m sorry Lord, but I’m not sure I can let go…

Paper Bag…

Spiarh — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 11:15:17 +0000

I just want to put my head in a paper bag,

No offence you said,

But that doesn’t give you a license to hurt me so badly.

You think you know me,

But I’m only willing to show you part of the picture,

But that’s all you need to judge me.

Hey guess what,

I’m not perfect,

I’m just me – love me or stay away.